There's some lives you live And some you leave behind

I feel like I am leaving more and more behind. It bothered me at first because I thought I was changing into something I am not. Then I realized that if I am changing I can not possibly be changing into something I am not, in principle nothing can change into what it is not, and I know I am not imitating something I am not, this is me. To change I need to get rid of stuff to make room for new things. What I am leaving behind are mainly flaws in my personality Hypocrisy, conceitedness, and ignorance are the main ones that come to mind. In high school I was conceited because I thought I knew a lot, turns out I was really quite ignorant and that ignorance made me a hypocrite a lot. Now I have come to realize I am just not that special, there are so many people "better than me," at certain things, my pride fades. When I realized I was not good enough I tried harder, learned more, my ignorance fades. I learn to know what the shit I say means before I said it, my hypocrisy fades. These are all good things. When I realized this I was a little less disappointed, but nonetheless still I was kind of disappointed. Disappointed that some of the stuff I was leaving behind was still important to me, so I backtracked to try and retrieve these metaphorical items I missed about myself, whether they were relationships or interests, I went back for them. When I reached for them I got burned, no longer do they hold any importance to me. Now each time I lose a relic from my past I just feel apathetic, I am not happy to see it go usually, but it never bothers me anymore. Hopefully the trend of only losing the bad remains, or I might destroy myself and be unmoved.