2013

I have a thought, not quite a theory, on human nature. In particular my individual nature or tendencies as a human. I mean I am speaking directly from personal experience and drawing a bit of support from the recent anthropology course I took last semester, but the thought is mostly influenced by the way I feel and things I notice. Anyway, it is my thought that humans are natural vagabonds. I feel like the need for belonging is just a misunderstood need for travel. I feel like in High school I really wanted to fit and maybe its because Ive grown up or maybe its because Ive tasted it, but now I don't really care if I truly, "fit in," because I view everything as temporary. It is the instinct of all animals to move when resources are depleted. It is a survival instinct to move on to find more food. This instinct, this mechanism for society has been lost as a consequence of modern main stream society. We do not move in order to survive, we wait, we wait for more to survive. We trust blindly in a system we do not understand to deliver all we need. Humankind became sedentary directly as a result of a need to care for crops once agriculture was developed, but as the farms moved from being single family sustenance farming to huge corporate commodity farming, people had already become too lazy to move anymore, too established. And now that they were so established they felt a need to fit in, to make friends to plant roots. Humans are now looking for reasons to stay somewhere, so they can cope with being no longer to move freely. It is a tragedy really, or maybe it is really far fetched (more likely), but it makes me feel better to think I'm following a natural instinct that is just buried in so many. I cant stay, four years has made me antsy. I got through it because I spent my summers exploring new places. I got through it by telling myself, "you just have to graduate and then the world is yours." I have never been one to go back on a promise and because I will receive my degree in May. I will be heading to the beautiful Olympic Peninsula in Washington this summer to act as a wilderness trip leader for the girl scouts of Western Washington pending an interview on Thursday. And in September pending medical clearance I will be leaving the country going somewhere (vague, I know) to teach environmental conservation via the Peace Corp. It is my intention and goal to update this blog periodically if not often in relation to this massive journey I am about to embark upon. I guess this sums up where I am at and how I feel right now. I guess what is really cool about it is that I am just getting started while so many I know have fallen for the need to fit, to get careers, to establish. I am just getting started, I am 21 and I am ready to cut ties and start over, over and over again.