The most wonderful time of the year.

PORTER, Colleen Rae - Of Flint, age 44, died Thursday, December 11, 2003 at her residence.
Sometimes, seven years isn't even enough time to get over or forget something. It always feels like it happened yesterday. My most vivid memories are also the most tragic. I will never know what could have been, and it kills me. It kills me to think of what certain things would be like with you, but at the same time I know, nothing would be close to the same. I love you and I miss you, and I will always feel like I am missing something, but I am happy right now. Not at this very moment, but in general I think I have worked a bunch of things out. All these problems that were thrust into the light when you were removed from it, are on their way to being solved. You left me with unanswered questions, but when you left me I decided to find the answers, and I am a little bit grateful for that, but to be honest I think I would give everything up, if that seven years could be six, five, or maybe zero. I love the way my life is turning out without you, except it will always be without you, and I will always resent that a little bit. I will always resent my life a little bit, because you are not in it. I love you, everything about you, I could not ask for a better mother. I will never forget you and I will never stop being grateful to you. Please never, if there is some kind of afterlife, rest in peace. Continue to be the free spirit you were and have inspired me to be. I love you.