A breif summary

End of the year report: A. L. Chavez
There has been a lot of change this year in my life, big changes, bigger than I am use to dealing with. My entire perspective on life shifted over the summer, it was already sliding in that direction but I finally made the realization that it was right and I can not be happier on how it has been working out. I decided that life was not about anything, it is just about living. Leaving your mark, success, happiness they are all just perks of living of life, they aren't goals, just sweet bonuses. I finally made the decision that experiences are the only thing to care about. This simple switch in perspective has changed my life this year more than I could have ever imagined. As a direct result I have switched my major, began applying for summer jobs out west, joined the crew team, took up running, and have never missed an opportunity to try something new.
I am learning what is important in my life. It is clear to me now that I am nowhere near the person I was in high school, because everyone I knew in high school does not really get me anymore. I know that I am better than I ever was; morally, physically, emotionally, mentally, and intellectual. Losing all those people hurt me at first but I can not move forward if I am anchored to the past. However the relationships I am building right now are incredibly important to me, and I will try to keep them from ending how the last ones did.
I have discovered the source of my unhappiness as the hostility I feel towards my old self and from people, places, things that know me as that. Its not to say I do not like what I was, contrary I feel as though it was a necessary step to arrive at where I am headed. I just feel as though I have finally grown up.
As far as the future is concerned this will be my last extended stay in Flint, Michigan. I will not be back for spring break and I will not come down once school has ended for more than a week, then I will be headed west this summer, and do not plan on coming back to Flint as more than a stop on my way to Marquette, and once I am back there I wont be home again for awhile.
I will no longer try to initiate things with people who shoot me down, I am not going to force people to have me in their lives, but I will give effort to stay in the lives of those who invite me.
I will run a half marathon by this time next year.
I will have a relationship with a guy that I will allow to be validated and I will not freak out as soon as it develops and end it.
I will no longer try and mush all the people I am related to together and try and make them care for each other I will love them all separately while they continue to hate each other.
I will invest in my education, even as I find it more of just stalling, since I do not plan on using it much when I graduate at least not for the first few years. My GPA will be more presentable.
I will continue to buy things that I want when I want them and get tremendous use out of them. I will not waste my money on useless things that I think I want and will never use.
I will continue to live my life based only on the value of experiences. I will shoot for my goals and take as many side trips along the way as I possibly can. Life is not a race, I will take my time, mess up constantly, and go the wrong way as often as possible.