My "religion" in a nutshell

The big bang, spontaneous generation, and evolution/natural selection are the only things I truly believe in anymore. The universe contains 400 billion billion stars many of which are the center of solar systems similar to our own, this is believed to be true. That means life was just a one in 400 billion billion chance. Steep odds but Earth just happened to have all the elements life needed to exist. Somewhere during the planet's formation the right chemicals were stewing around and maybe they were hit by an electrical storm, which were believed to occur often in pre-fossil record earth, and the amino acids formed into nucleic acids and life just became. Spontaneous coincidence. I mean with 400 billion billion stars one of the planets orbiting one of the stars or one of the moons orbiting one of the planets orbiting one of the stars was bound to get lucky and play host to what is known as life. Anyway after life became a prokaryote was eventually consumed by a slightly larger prokaryote. When not fully digested, a mutualistic relationship was formed eventually leading to the eukaryote. The eukaryote grew, adapted, mutated and branched away in many directions, each direction growing adapting and re-branching. This resulted in all the things currently living in our biosphere. Ideally evolution would continue unchecked. I guess this is were the religion comes in. I can either believe that it was just random luck that the Human race developed complex thought out of sheer coincidence or I can give credit to some mystical being. As of now I consider it random because there is evidence that many other species have developed forms of complex thought. They can solve problems, use tools, form hierarchies, etc. True, no other species has evolved to the point of philosophy, art, or religion, but maybe we just have not waited long enough. I think it is cool that I think I have figured it out but the thing is I want to believe in a creator. Unfortunately to do so would be to believe that this creator somehow set evolution in process just to create the human race. This is a thing I can not believe because all species continue to adapt and evolve, if the human race was the ultimate goal, natural selection should cease. Yet it is cleat that only the "fit" seem to survive in the natural world. Evolution is continuing to occur even in the human race. So if there is a creator, I can only believe in them if they A) did not choose homo sapien sapien as their ultimate goal or B) started off this project, "earth," got bored and left. Both theories are highly unlikely, way less believable then random chance, and not very comforting. So my religion is to remain in a state of suspended disbelief. It is funny I started this blog denouncing the randomness of the world only to find further truth in it. Regardless I am still not happy and plan on continuing this search for higher power, no matter how depressed it makes me.