If the world's at large, why should I remain?

I always seem to disagree with society, and when I do not, I really want to. If I had the strength or the guts I would cut all ties with society and just leave, but for some reason I. need it. I am disgusted by it daily, the lies, the deceit, the hate, there is so much hate. The more I live among the human race the more desensitized to voilence and brutality I become, but I can not leave it. Without society I am weak, with society I am blind, or at least I have to seem blind. The thing is society has all this terrible, really really terrible stuff in it, but also it has love and compassion, it has what makes me human. Humans have flaws, humans make up society, society has flaws its inevitable, and no matter how hard I try to be above society, I will always just be human. I am unable to escape this society. I would like to believe the reason I stay is to change something or because I need human interaction, but I am just not to sure anymore. I know the reason I stay is not material but, I think the reason I stay is terror. Society is all I have ever known. How can I possibly be brave enough to leave the only thing I have ever known. I think I am going through some kind of mid-youth crisis. I am beginning to think I just need a break from the real world. I hope I can get over this by taking off for a week and just leaving, just going anywhere else. It is not necessarily leaving society, but leaving the society I am used to. Like I said, I am not brave enough to leave, leave.