The Uncertainty

It is impossible for me to make up my mind ever. It is like one day I am one hundred percent committed to something and the next I kick myself for even considering it. I am not really sure what it is. I am beginning to think I might have some kind of fear of commitment, but only long term commitments. I can easily promise away every Sunday night for a year for hall gov or two hours a day for soccer practice. I can even commit to attending a four year college, but I can not come up with a legitimate career goal. Every time I do, I pick it apart until it loses all appeal. I would not travel enough, I would travel too much. I will not make enough money, I will make too much money. It does not even matter how random the reason is, I will allow myself nothing to strive for. Planning my life freaks me out. I mean honestly how irrational is planning for life. Thats all I got.