I think i just need to push through. I may not have everything i want or everything i need but i have a disgusting amount of pride and i will not let other people be better than me. Even if they have a better situation or more focus. There is not a single person on this planet with more determination and stubbornness than I. When i say Im going to do something i do it. I push and i do it. This is not anyone else's fault there is no fault involved, this was a choice i made and while perhaps it was not the the best choice, it was not the wrong choice. There are no wrong choices in life just poor follow through. No matter how shitty a situation this becomes the fact of the matter is that i brought myself here and have the knowledge and skill necessary to find my way out. Yeah it sucks, and its goingvto be painful and potentially miserably unhealthy at times but i am going to figure it out with or without outside help. This is operation eat, sleep, get shit done. I am going to catch the fuck up in class, finish strong, find a better job, and drop my split to a 2 flat. It will happen, no matter what it takes. I have gotten through worse. Goodbye alcohol hello whey protein. Goodbye bars hello library.
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