Sad songs, remind us of friends

It is really shitty that you cannot tell how much you miss someone until they are no longer in your life indefinitely. I knew I was going to miss them, I knew it when ever we hung out and it made me smile, I knew it when my eyes would water when we talked about leaving, I knew it when I teared up saying goodbyes, and I knew it when I could not stop crying as soon as we hugged for the last time at the the airport and I turned and left, so I could walk to my flight. It is not necessarily that I have regrets, it is more that I wish I would have had the opportunity to say more, about myself, about how I feel. I wish I would have learned more about them. And I wish we would have more time to spend time with each other. Every person I meet and have the chance to get close to has a profound impact on the way I live my life and when someone living the life I want comes along I become truly inspired, and it becomes incredibly hard to let that person go. It really kills me that our only shot at seeing each other again is not til next year and even then, it may not happen, depending on where they work versus where I work. And I hope by some profound coincidence they get placed at the same camp I decide to work at, and it is not because I am selfish, or because I miss them. It is because I want them around to keep changing my life, keep having that intense impact. I want to learn more about them, I want to tell them more about me. I want them to stay with me as a good friend, not as someone I used to know pretty well.