Sometimes,

I have dreams where I am friends we people who are not my friends, we would have so much fun if we were friends. Sometimes I idolize people I have only met once, and make it my mission to get them to like me, because they are obviously way cooler, or chill, or hipper, or environmentally friendly, or active, or outdoorsy than I am. If I ever get them to like them me and we become friends, I will then try to outdo them at the thing that drew me to them. I adopt the hobbies or interests that they have that I idolize, whether it be something I do or not. I see them do it, hear them talk about it and I want to do it. It becomes my passion, and obsession all of my attention becomes diverted to it. I make t my mission to be the very best that I can be. Because I know(or think) as soon as I am better at it then they are they not only have to like me, they have to respect me. This is all done extremely passively of course. I am not sure if it works or not, but I definitely so it sometimes. I cannot be sure if it is normal behavior or not, but I am ninety percent positive there's some educated psychological complex name for it.