Do You Realize that everyone you know someday will die?

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes, let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Shit! Shit! Shit! Shit! Can people please just stop reminding me that it is February, it is hard enough to pretend like I am over it. It is not even the 16th why the fuck do I have to feel this way? It is not like I did not say goodbye, we were in a good place when you left, but I still feel like, I could have, I do not know, stopped it. I am sure I could have, if I paid more attention.