Everything that kept me together is falling apart.

Wow have I fucked myself over. The only shit that matters to me is the shit that does not matter, go figure. So while I have been so concerned with these things I hold important; nature, family, life experience, being there for people, everything else which is apparently infinitely more important; school, work, fiances, has been slowly burying me. So now I have to put everything important to me on hold and deal with this remedial shit, that will ultimately decide my entire future. Luckily I drank so much last weekend that I can just shut myself in my room this weekend and catch the fuck up. Of course I will take at least one break and go climb hogsback or on an epic bike ride, but there will be no going out, no parties, no bonfires, and no trip to Wisconsin. This weekend is crunch time. I pretty much flunked out of my major, so I hope I can salvage my grade this weekend, or I will have to go with my bluff and change majors. This weekend is for studying, filling out forms, packing, and paper writing. I hope putting this in a blog will actually make me do it... time will tell.