1) Family - I am too close with too many people, my biological family, my non biological family. It is not even so much that I would miss them, I would, a lot, but I would feel more guilty knowing they were missing and worrying about me. Its hard to be free when I am weighed down by guilt.
2) Responsibility - Funny it is both my reason to stay and the thing I want to run from. I can not stand being expected to do so many things, but once again I would fill extremely guilty if I abandoned my responsibilities
3) Happiness - I am like moderately happy right now. Like if I took off there is potential to become less than moderately happy, but at the same time, there is potential to find total happiness.
4) Indecision - Every time I convince myself to go, and my adrenaline starts to rush, my rational self talks me out of it. It is like I always find a reason to stay, or I just create one.
5) Ignorance - I am not smart enough to survive on my own with out a circle of support, I do not think. Even if I was I do not want people to view me as a flunky. I want to prove I can become something, before I become nothing.
6) Goals - I want to change things, leave my mark. It can not be done by running from the problems that need to be changed. The moral high ground would be to stay.
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