If you read this you will probably hate me

God does not exist or Christians would be Christ like. I have never in my entire life met one single person who believed in god to the point of following the bible, well like a bible. If I knew god existed I would be the most selfless, giving, moral person ever as not to condemn myself to life in some hellish hell. I have never seen anyone with faith enough to convince me to believe and if I did, I and many "Christians " would probably write them off as insane. Rightly so, because if they were treating the bible like a bible not just a suggestion they would seem rather insane. Also the whole beg for forgiveness thing is the biggest joke I have ever heard. A person cannot be forgiven of sins unless at the time the sins were committed, the person did not know they were committing sins. Otherwise it is kind of like taking advantage of Jesus, a person can not consciously commit a sin apologize for it and be reconsidered a saintly person, especially if they ever recommit the sin. That would be like double hell because when someone apologizes that means they wont do something again, if they do it again that means they were lying to God. I know, I know, Jesus died for our sins. I am not sure that means people can do what ever they want and play the Jesus loves me card. I am not saying I do not believe in redemption a person can do something terrible and change, but I am willing to bet that person does not need to redeem themselves weekly in confessional if they our truly changed. I have done bad things and I really believe I have done enough to redeem myself morally. So if there is a god he is a total jerk if he believes words are bigger than actions. I know plenty of people who attend church weekly that are bad influences on me, and I go to mass only when forced to. I am a better person then them and if god does exist (slim chance), that should be enough for him. If you actually hate me because You read this, you are going to hell, because hate is murder and murder is against the ten commandments, well as long as you apologize, I guess.