One mans trash

Growing up, my dad always said, "Why are you so destructive?" He would also call me "reckless" and I remember him telling me one day the summer of my freshman year of college after I had accidentally removed all the skin from my left ankle and a good chunk from my right leg that he was absolutely certain I would die in some sort of accident before I was thirty. He was kidding, but there was an unmistakable tinge of actual belief in it. I have been told again and again that I need to stop taking to many risks, that I am a liability, that I am destructive. For a little while I felt bad about it, I mean why do I have to take everything apart, tear things to shreds, and repeatedly injure myself on accident? But then my roommate called me destructive as I was burning things with a lighter, she asked me why I always do it. And when I answered I figured I out, I said why not? Don't you ever just want to know what would happen? Don't you ever just want to see for yourself? I had my answer, I'm not destructive and I'm not reckless, I am just curious. I just want to know what happens. I want to push boundaries, in essence I am just a more intelligent 4 year old. Maybe you want to know if the ice can hols your weight, I'll just walk out and check. I am not patient enough to wait for answers and I am to driven to take, I don't knows or, "That's just the way it is," and forget about it. I want to know, I need to know, and I will make sure I know. With that being said, at the root of my destructive behavior is the connotation of the word, "destruction." The behavior others view as destruction is not destruction it is creation and creation is destruction and destruction is creation, they are one in the same, it is all just a matter of perspective. Northern Michigan University just created a new parking lot, but in process they destroyed a green area. It was both, they are the same, to create fire, we destroy trees. To create steel we destroy ore rich rocks. To write, we destroy paper. Destruction is a way to bring something new about, it's about rebirth from chaos, its starting over, its not clinging to the past. Destruction brings an end to stagnation an end to systems acting imperfectly. Destruction is the ultimate creation. Destruction is revolution. We destroyed slavery and created equal rights, destroyed unjust taxation, destroyed unfair dictation, destroyed unfair dictators and it is time we destroy again. A whole lot of things need to be destroyed in order for a whole lot of better things to be created. We need to destroy our ideals of infinite growth, destroy our dependence on fossil fuels, create a fair world, create alternative energy. I want so badly to destroy so many things, because that destruction is the only thing that will save us from our selves, for if we continue to to create without destroying, we are essentially placing new additions on a burning building. So I take those who call me reckless and destructive and thank them for they are essentially praising me on my creativity and drive.