All you need is?

I think I am actually starting to gain some real friends. People who are not just drinking buddies, not just acquaintances, or people I am associated with, but real and long lasting friends. People willing to help me out. Its really strange to think that I have only had maybe 6 or 7 really good friends over my lifetime and that at least half of them have fallen to the wayside at some point. To be honest I dont see why people like me on the small scale I am super loyal, fun, and, willing to be there, but on the larger scale I am sort of a selfish flake, that just wants to go places, no matter who is where. There have been few willing to stick it out, but I have a feeling that if I do this right there will be more, and if I work hard this time, I might be able to keep one as more than a friend for an actual substantial period of time. I seriously cannot understand how people can deal with me.