What if?

That moment when you finally start taking action that allows you to live your life the way you want to live your life, is fucking indescribable. I am going to Colorado in seven days, seven fucking days! It took me almost twenty years to go to Colorado and I am finally doing it! When I get back from Colorado I am going to jump out of a fucking plane! Then I am going to the only place that I feel a sense of belonging large enough to call home, and when I get there, Oh when I get there! I am going to have a few weeks to hike, jump off cliffs, and just live it up before I start back on my studies and take the first class for my outdoor rec minor. Thats right this kid finally got the nerve to take outdoor rec. And I know my future goals change a lot from time to time, but when I tell any variation of them to people they laugh, and I laugh along. It is a little bit sad that when other people hear of my future plans they take it as a joke, but until now it was really nothing more. So I am going to go ahead and let them laugh, because they are way to sure of themselves, they have convinced themselves they are headed down the right path, headed for ultimate success, they lack my conerstone, they lack flexibility. They are all to heavily invested in something that can never be a sure thing, for the future is always an unknown, life is about the present! So, what if? Then I will just do something else. How about you?