No, Im not mad bro.

Due to a lot of recent stress and a recent re-occurrence of old urges I have decided to update myself on my life and mental affairs. It seems that no matter how smoothly life seems to go there always comes a moment when I hit a speed bump and me, not being as aware as what is maybe necessary or the norm when I hit that speed bump my life went crashing into a giant fucking ditch. As I stand in this ditch that I have come to know far to well and gaze at the gently sloping walls surrounding me I can find no way to climb up for every wall I approach crumbles at my touch. Its frustrating because the walls seem so easy to climb and so inviting but there is no possible way for me to escape. Then along come that familiar urge why try to get out of the ditch, why not run along its bottom see where it may go? I never can seem to face my problems and I have found no way to fight the stress that comes so often with them, so instead I want to run away. With everything that has happened thus far, the things that may occur in the future, and the intense head start I have currently been given, I feel like now could potentially be a good time to make my escape. Now I wait for enough people to talk me out of it or for my brain to finally implode and give me the courage to do everything.