Shes fighting with the sky

It is like when ever stuff starts going good, whenever I get good at something, whenever I get the hang of life, it comes time for a change. After taking a whole year to get into the swing of college life again, I finally get a system worked out and it is going to be useless in three weeks. At first I was annoyed, having to start over again trying to find a way to live for a month, and then having to restart again, but then I realized if things were not this way I would go insane. Life is nothing without change. There is no point of mastering something and then doing it over and over again as close to perfect as humanly possible. When I master something, it comes time for me to find something new and exciting to repeatedly fail at until I start to get the hang of it. As much as life is about success, it is doubly about failure, the process of trial and error. Change is a necessary driving factor, one can not let themselves get to comfortable, getting comfortable leads to settling and settling is another word for giving up. So, yeah, I have got shit figured out pretty well right now, but I cannot wait to cut all ties with this comfortable secure routine I have going and jump headfirst into something I know approximately nothing about. I used to be terrified of failure, of letting myself, or anyone down, not doing the things I set out to do, but eventually it came to me, failure is not what people make it out to be. Failure is not flunking an exam, or getting fired, or dropping out of college, these things are just changes, it is what one does after that defines whether or not they have failed. We can not assume all people have the same values, and we must stop belief in the notion that things like promotions and college degrees are steps towards success. The only thing that is a true failure is giving up on yourself, settling. Life is good, not because it is easy but because it is dynamic.