I just feel off

Every time I go work at my shitty mp job it makes me really sad and I miss the summer. I dislike the hustle and bustle of the real world. I dislike having to think about money. I dislike having to go to classes and having to learn what I am told to. Its happening again I am starting to feel trapped. Today was just a terrible day. I want to run. I do not know what I want. I do not want to leave, I just want everything to be sorted out, so I can be irresponsible again. I want to be an environmental science major and I want to row everyday again, and I want to get shitty when I want to get shitty. I want to run. I want to go camping. I want to climb things. I just want everything to be slightly different but the same. I am done with the classes I am in, I want a change. I just need something slightly different. I want to run. I want to feel productive. I want it to be tomorrow and I want tomorrow night to work out, and I want the weekend to go well, and I want it to be next weekend. I need to chill out. I need to run. I do not have time to run. I missed my chance I only ran 2 miles I could have done more. Dammit.