mixed emotions

I can not believe its over. I just spent twelve weeks with no personal space, minimal showering, and a bunch of screaming children and it had to be one of the most meaningful experiences I have ever had. I definitely went to work at GSSEM camps very confused about who I was and who I wanted to be and what it means to live, and it is safe to say that I have left confused about who I want to be, but I am pretty sure I am figuring out who I am and I definitely think now I actually know what it means to feel fulfilled. Not to mention, the amazing people I met there, who have inspired me to be more open, trusting and, more sure of myself. I feel like it was a poush in the right direction, I just wish it was not over. Actually having to say goodbyes today and them being for more than the day and a half we call a weekend was impossibly rough. It just sucks having built something so good that worked so well and having to abandon it. I have lost my support system and its not like I have another one waiting for me. I have to rebuild what I was starting to have at northern and try to incorporate what I never had in Flint into it. On the flip side I can not wait to be back in Marquette. The people, the life, the lake, I have missed it so much. I am almost as excited for my classes as I am for being back in Marquette. I just hope to follow through on the promises I made myself. I guess we will see.