How you gonna ever find your place running in an artificial pace?

Its all like a motion. Wake up do this, do that, do this, go to class, do this, go to class, do that, do this, do that, be spontaneous, go to bed. The fucked up thing is I am really happy with it. I am skating by going through the motions, having a blast. College has never been more fun. I am just nervous that something is going to catch up to me. It is like I feel overly accomplished, when I really have not done anything. I planned a bunch of stuff out, laid the ground work, and decided I was finished. I have this pseudo-sense of accomplishment that I have been hanging by, but now I am starting to see its all just tentative. I have just been playing a waiting game since December waiting for things to fall into place and now they are starting to. The pieces do not really fit right on their own, I need to follow through. I guess its not pseudo-accomplishment anymore because I called myself out on it, I guess I am lying to myself. At any rate this means it is crunch time. Time to get my shit together and like get off auto pilot. I don't know, It is complicated.