never stop

I do not think I will ever be one of those people who wants to "settle down" and start a family. The very idea of settling down sounds terrible to me. Settling down sounds like the opposite of a happy exciting life, if anything I hope to stay riled up for a long time. to be riled up is to have passion and adventure, settled down is to have monotony and security. I really hope I never have security, I think it would kill my spirit, to always have something to fall back on. What is the point of trying something new if the monotony is so secure. Settling down sounds like pure torture. I have never been one of those people who when looking to the future saw a picket fence and a yard full of dogs and smiling children. When I looked to the future I was always in the middle of the Atlantic, on the top of a mountain, or jumping out of an airplane. Settling down is settling, settling is giving up. I do not have the ability to give up. I am not saying that I never want to start a family, of course I want a family, I just do not ever want to have to settle down to do it. I never want that nice suburban home, I never want to be a "soccer mom," It just is not who I am. I do not give up on my dreams, and I can not ignore my need to explore.