The same thing, i hope

Success sounds terrible. How can it even be measured. Do we count all the money someone has, because I am already out of the running. Is it accomplished by having a happy and healthy family, because I am not sure i want that either. Success cannot be something that has set unit of measurement, because it would be impossible for so many people with so many different ways of life to have achieved it. I conclude success must be impossible because is there not always someone more successful? The elusive perfect life of the Jones. We are forced to compare ourselves to the super rich and super happy and feel sorry for ourselves. We wish we could have that amount of success, but at the same time people in poverty think that having a minimum wage job is a success. That cannot be success either. No one is "rich in love," to the point where money does not matter. Money will always matter, it rules our lives. We need it. We need to need it, because if we did not what would we work for? Happiness? How can we be happy if the Jones are so successful and rich? Maybe the only way to find success is to stop looking for it, maybe we all just need to do what makes us happy. Saying we need to forget about money is not an option. I cannot be happy without money, because I cannot survive without money. I have come to the realization that I may never truly be "happy and successful," because I will always need money to travel, to explore, to hike, to read, to learn, to survive. I have realized that I can find a way to do what I want, I just have to be willing to work for it now. I do not know if I am, but i am going to try and work for it anyway. I just hope that I can handle it. Then when I am doing exclusively what I love, work and happiness will be the same thing. They have to be or I am just working for disappointment.