Now we've got Something to prove. And I, I can see their eyes, but tell me something, can they see mine? Cause whats left to lose? I've done enough. And if I fail well then I fail but i gave it a shot. And these last three years, I know they've been hard. But now its time to get out of the desert and into the sun; even if its alone. A song has never more perfectly summed up my life. I hate this feeling.

Go Do

Remember when success was effortless? Remember when everything always went as planed? Remember never knowing what failure felt like? Me neither. I have mentally restructured my life philosophy based upon my love for jumping off of things, into things, out of things, and over things. The act of jumping is, even in the most controlled situations, pretty chaotic. A million things could happen, but once the jump starts it has to be finished. Whether the jump ends in the Superior Sea, with a scraped up face, or a summer in California. Jumping is an ultimate commitment, disguised in risk, adventure, and the unknown. Its not about living life on the edge, its about getting the courage to leave the edge. Its about not viewing the edge as an end, but a transition. The summit is nice, but there still has to be a way to get back down. Its running as far as I can and taking four more steps, its about doing it all and then doing it differently. I never want anything to hold me back ever, I never want to have to say, "I would but..." I like to jump, a jump is a change, a quick transition. I don't want to linger, I don't want to delay. There is a risk with a jump, I might not land how I planned, I might not land where I planned, but failure is the best way to learn. I will not let the fear of what might happen prevent me from trying. People are really good at talking themselves out of things, convincing themselves that they do not want something, when they really do. Other people think this is good, they tell each other, "sleep on it." Never sleep on anything. Just live deliberately, immediately. I will not delay my life in an effort to prevent myself from ever feeling failure. I will not protect myself from life.