Shit plus fan equals my life

Time keeps catching up to me. It seems like I barely started working at camp and now I have to get back to the "real world." Let me tell you about that, in the real world the shit has hit the fan. I have no financial aid and i forgot part of my audit paper so that's even more fucked. hahaha. It seems like I have no worries at all except for money.

BAM

Just wanted to let everyone know that I am alive. And all is well, except financial aid that is a disaster. On a good note. Avett was fantastic. I have job apps everywhere. And I am going to Cedar point this weekend. My break is over in three minutes. I will be home next weekend, to pack. and then the following its off to Mqt. Time flies. I have a lot to say but unfortunately no time.

Do what you love and fuck the rest.

I know I have been saying this obnoxiously over and over again, but I am just really excited about it. I am happy, well less confused. I am less mentally conflicted and thus I am less stressed and more happy. What I mean is that I feel more fulfilled, like I am always happy. I mean it is not even actually that. Its not happiness, I mean it is, but its mostly like lack of confusion. I sleep better. Everything is just better. I feel like I know what I am doing, everything is just right. And I am happy about it, but I am starting to realize I do eventually have to face the future. Which sucks because I do not know what I want to do with it, and that means I will be confused and that is going to stress me out, and I will not be to happy about it. But for right now everything is going pretty well, I get paid, I am signed up for classes, my financial aid is finally being processed, and all my relationships are some form of healthy. So for right now I am totally fine with living in the right now. I know the future is important but I will get there when I get there. I may not have it all figured out yet but I am making progress and I am in a good place to continue the progress.

Heat stroke

Its so hot all the time. Constantly. I wish I could just go swimming. Damn you tattoo.

stubborn

People other than me never seem to change. Seriously. Maybe this is conceited but I feel as though I have become a better person, but no one else seems to follow suite. I just wish that every time I came back to Flint a better person I would not have to deal with the same shit I had to deal with my entire life. This is why I like to stay away. Ignorance is bliss if i am far away I can pretend like everyone is nice and honest and that they never did anything remotely upsetting, but when I visit that sweet little fantasy crumbles. Maybe I should try to do something about it, maybe. Just a footnote, this is not about you guys, you are probably the only reason I come back other than feeling obligated.

Translation of the pervious

I had a really good weekend in Marquette, and next year should follow suit. It will be even better if I have some good friends there with me. Also I am happy, because even though I do not have everything figured put I at least know I am putting myself in the best place to figure it out. And I am not saying just physically. I am located correctly but I also think I am in the right state of mind to figure it out. Basically as soon as I do my financial aid I will be in a really good place.

drunk blogging under the influence

If this weekend is any like pre-warning of the school year, then hell fucking yeah. I meant a million people did a million shots walked around in shorts and a tank top, got porch hugs watched fireworks, and was outside. This weekend was so epic and i cant wait til I am once again here for good. Damn Fry and possibly Bri shaver get ready for the best year of your life. Then only thing I love more than working at summer camp is going to school in Marquette Michigan have I mentioned I am happy with my life. I am so happy all the time now. Depression is a joke. Get Loko 'merica! I love this so much. Im gonna go across the street they keep screaming in the window to me. Yeah yeah yeah, Mar-fucking-quette